getting caught in action

when i do anything remotely sneaky, i feel guilty. i also feel this rush... a thrill. even if it's nothing big. 

for example, today. i checked my email at work! what a bad girl i am. you have to understand that i work in a very tiny office inside a bigger office (kind of like michael's room from the office but 2/3 the size) and there is only one computer. the screen faces the door so people who are passing by can see what i'm doing. but my boss was out of the office, taking pictures of properties. 

i felt safe. she had other errands to run this time so i wasn't expecting her to return for a while. i checked my gmail and even started writing an email to alice. i had about three paragraphs done when she walked in

silently. she didn't intent to be so silent, i think. she's just like that.

i guess i should've been more careful~

she didn't say anything, but i was so nervous that i panicked and i quickly tried to close the window. it gave me that stupid "ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO EXIT THIS PAGE" yes or no thingies so it didn't go away fast enough. my palms were sweaty. so many things were passing through my mind. omg omg omg. what to do what to do. 

it's been two weeks and i haven't done anything wrong yet. and i'm really scared of my boss.... i've seen her yell at other people. i really didn't know what to expect. surprisingly, she didn't say anything. she might have not caught on though, since she is somewhat computer-illiterate. either way, i'm never checking my email again at the office. at least not for a while.