theme of death

so a couple days ago i was really bored so i spent a lot of time on youtube. i like to watch a lot of dance videos especially so i was watching a bunch. then i found a song to a dance that had a good beat: "i just died" by amerie. so i downloaded it. 

after a while, i decided to check out videos of people who are blowing O's because i wanted to learn how (teehee) and this one guy was smoking to the lil wayne's "i feel like dying." it was strangely catchy and i had to look more into it. so i youtubed the song. from reading the descriptions of some of the results, i found out that it was inspired by another song about really depressing stuff and feeling like dying. i also found out that if you play it backwards, it has a creepy message. i wasn't about to click on it to hear it because i knew it was going to freak me out. then i googled it and i still couldn't find a website that explained it in depth. hmm, what a waste of time.

this was all around 12'o clock at night. then i heard a howl that i never heard before. i sleep right next to a window and i hear dogs barking all the time but this howl was really weird. it sounded like a cross between a strong wind seeping through the crack of my window and a child crying out in pain at a high pitch. 

i was scared out of my mind. i was sweating cold sweat. i really wanted to just shout for my mom. and then i started thinking about all the 'death' stuff i had encountered that day. gahhhd. i had to listen to my ipod really loud until i fell asleep. 

i should find better stuff to do on my downtime...