i am

NOT going to turn my blog into a bitch fest. 

i just won't. 

but i really don't want to go to work tomorrow. you feel me? 

tomorrow's monday... the worst day of the week. thursdays are kinda bad too because they're a tease. but monday is DEfinitely the worst. 

the thing that makes my easy job hard- is my boss's mood swings and its tremendous effect on the way i feel about myself. ugh. she can be SO harsh on me. but to be honest, i need the money. i need to keep that job for as long as possible. the unemployment rate is like 9% (i heard it on npr) and i just need to be GLAD i have a job. 

if there is a job that pays $12/hr or more under the table, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! prostitution of any kind is not an option though.

anyhoo... i experienced a real chinese new year eve dinner at a real chinese home. thanks to clara. the way we dine are so different but i like both ways. my family eats a LOT more rice. we always have some kinda soup with our meal too. one thing we have in common: we cook way too much food. maybe on purpose. i tried almost everything at the table- even the pig feet. i've eaten it before the way koreans eat it- i think it's boiled, sliced and dipped in chili sauce. if you try hard not to think about the fact that it's pig's feet, they're not so bad. clara's dish was boiled but already marinated in some kind of soy sauce. it was good but i really couldn't finish it, which i felt very rude for. another difference: the WHOLE chicken was cooked, on a plate, at the table. and i mean- in one piece. the head, the claws, the whole works. i have NEVER ever seen a chicken like that ever. i was very scared. i am so accustomed to having everything cut off but the body and the legs. i'm not being rude, but it looked like a featherless chicken was sleeping on the plate. literally. 

i hope that wasn't offensive because her mother is a wonderful cook. she later chopped it up so it was easier to eat. 

*sigh*

work tomorrow.

no work day

ah. 

it feels good to be home all day. something happened at work and i got dropped off by my boss around 9:30 because she had to go somewhere. it's nothing serious, but i don't want to go in detail about it because what happens at work stays in the office. 

but work has been so drab lately. it's not just work, but life in general. nothing is really challenging anymore- everything is stagnant. i mean, i go out and have fun with friends but not having school really blows. when i first started work, it was exciting because i was learning something new and i had to learn a lot of things at once. i was all hyped. but after a few weeks, you know the drill- and that's all you do the whole day. working at the office and working for my mom, it's become all routine and i feel dead in a way. 

i think that's why i've been having really vivid dreams. and i wake up extremely tired because i get really stressed out in my dreams. this is weird because i don't dream much at all. in my dreams i encounter situations that i have no control over. something is always unfair for me. ugh. 

but it's probably because i've been physically tired, going to sleep late. i don't know. i'll give it a week and see if i go crazy =P

oh btw, this is my first post after Barack Hussein Obama became president!! woot woott! he's not a miracle worker, but we're moving towards change... and that's great. and please don't pronounce barack like barrack. it sounds weird-

don't let the bedbugs bite!

no, i'm not wishing you a cute 'good night.'
i'm warning you that you should watch out for bed bugs. i didn't even know they were real!

on the sunday edition of la times a couple days ago, there was a whole article on the return of these BED BUGS. i can't find the exact article on the la times website but it was close to this blog article. they're making a come back since their enemy, DDT, has been banned in the US. bed bugs are hard to kill, even with over the counter pesticides, so they've serious. reports of bedbugs have been sprouting up from all over the country and yes, CALIFORNIA. it's really easy to get them from public places. their eggs are near invisible and you might catch some on your purse or shoes. YIKES! they're awfully hard to get rid of, and you might have to throw out all your furniture.

so.... just watch out. not much is being done by the gov't yet because they're not known to carry diseases. but bed bugs sound prettty gross, don't they?

*bringing back DDT is not an option because it's hazardous to all organisms.

what grinds my gears

i love/hate my little sister. 

i love her for the most part. but this girllll. she's three years younger than i and she drives me inSANE. she pushes buttons that i didn't even know i had. she's spoiled, hard-headed, irresponsible, selfish and mostly, she needs to be spanked. 

i'm waiting for her to become mature. but till then, she's going to continue to be the biggest source of my stress. i don't need all this from her when i work so much and i have other things to do. she really needs to go to one of those boot camps. ugh.

i'm sure you're thinking: her sister probably thinks the same way about her. well, she may think i'm annoying because i tell her what to do, but how can i not when she leaves her shit everywhere like a trail and leaves the bathroom a mess and other things that directly affect me? ugh. 

she's so frustrating. not even my parents can tell her what to do. i don't want to have kids when i'm older because i don't want to deal with little shitheads like her. sorry i had to say that, but she fucking grinds my gears.