moleskin makes me a better person.

moleskin notebooks are DE best!

they take writing to a whole new level for me... i just bought an xs moleskin to record all my spendings. i really need to cut down on how much i spend. this is NOT ironic. 

i know the set of 2 was like $7 but it will help me see my spendings at a glance and assess how i'm doing at saving my money. some days, i spend little by little and it really adds up. it's like that old trick for diets. WRITE it all down so you can truly see how much you're eating. i've never been anorexic so i haven't done that before but i am anorexic with my money, so this should help.

today i spent $17.56 at barnes and noble and $4 something at 7/11 for the new issue of glamour. not bad... right? 

NEGATIVE 2

ok, i just found out i got TWO negative points on a comment i made on youtube.

i'm really annoyed by it. i don't even know why you can rate COMMENTS. i've given thumbs ups before but never thumbs downs... ugh i'll try to get over this asap since it's dumb!

bah!

longgggggggggg hair!

Yea. 

i've been wanting long hair for quite some time now, but i kept getting hair cuts/trims and now i'm finally ready to really let it grow. 

i had to google "rate of average hair growth" to figure out how long it would take and i found this really helpful website.

your hair can grow 6 inches MAX in one year, and by the time your hair reaches shoulder length, it is TWO years old. ugh.... really? 

and i've noticed that my hair grows a lot slower than everyone else's, taking into account that i do cut my hair every now and then. it's STILL slower. i don't know, do you think i'll ever get there?   shoot.

geology is hard.

i hate reading about plate tectonics for hours....

i keep getting side tracked. fuggggg.

buffalo exchange

wow guess what i spotted at buffalo yesterday-

a dries van noten sweater. yes, it was severely faded and looked like a piece of rag but it was dries van noten nevertheless. 

i love finding higher end stuff at second-hand/thrift stores. i haven't been to many besides buffalo but the buffalo exchange in fullerton is pretty good. last year i found a $100 dim mak sweater that i've been wanting for around $15. later last year, i found a pair of purple siguerson morrison's for $18 which was retailing at $120 at the time. i don't understand why people give up the things that they do, but i'm not complaining. 

thanks to all the rich people for donating their shit. 

i didn't end up buying the dries van noten sweater bc it was too old though. 

lesson learned.

it's weird how i keep making the same mistakes.
i just feel like i ask too many questions, so this time i decided to handle something on my own (i thought it was a fairly simple problem) and then i got burrrned. metaphorically.

all i had to do was call her and let her know what was going on. there was a simple dilemma when i was ordering something for her and something wasn't specified- the other party asked me to send them more information about a certain property and i did.

this whole time, she was out of the office and when i called her at the end to update her, she said why didn't you ask me? why did you send something without my permission?

all the other times she scolded me, i didn't feel too bad because i felt that she was blaming me for something that was inevitable. THIS time, i knew what i was doing but i thought she would thank me for it because there was no other way to get around the problem. BUT there was. and she knew it right away- she explained to me that she gets the assignments that she gets because of her experience- and then i felt really really bad.

ugh. i don't know what i'm going to do when i see her tomorrow morning. i'm so scared.

at least now i know, don't do ANYTHING without asking. especially when you're working FOR someone- you're doing things on their behalf so you better do what they want you to do.

i hate the real world.

theme of death

so a couple days ago i was really bored so i spent a lot of time on youtube. i like to watch a lot of dance videos especially so i was watching a bunch. then i found a song to a dance that had a good beat: "i just died" by amerie. so i downloaded it. 

after a while, i decided to check out videos of people who are blowing O's because i wanted to learn how (teehee) and this one guy was smoking to the lil wayne's "i feel like dying." it was strangely catchy and i had to look more into it. so i youtubed the song. from reading the descriptions of some of the results, i found out that it was inspired by another song about really depressing stuff and feeling like dying. i also found out that if you play it backwards, it has a creepy message. i wasn't about to click on it to hear it because i knew it was going to freak me out. then i googled it and i still couldn't find a website that explained it in depth. hmm, what a waste of time.

this was all around 12'o clock at night. then i heard a howl that i never heard before. i sleep right next to a window and i hear dogs barking all the time but this howl was really weird. it sounded like a cross between a strong wind seeping through the crack of my window and a child crying out in pain at a high pitch. 

i was scared out of my mind. i was sweating cold sweat. i really wanted to just shout for my mom. and then i started thinking about all the 'death' stuff i had encountered that day. gahhhd. i had to listen to my ipod really loud until i fell asleep. 

i should find better stuff to do on my downtime...

i am

NOT going to turn my blog into a bitch fest. 

i just won't. 

but i really don't want to go to work tomorrow. you feel me? 

tomorrow's monday... the worst day of the week. thursdays are kinda bad too because they're a tease. but monday is DEfinitely the worst. 

the thing that makes my easy job hard- is my boss's mood swings and its tremendous effect on the way i feel about myself. ugh. she can be SO harsh on me. but to be honest, i need the money. i need to keep that job for as long as possible. the unemployment rate is like 9% (i heard it on npr) and i just need to be GLAD i have a job. 

if there is a job that pays $12/hr or more under the table, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! prostitution of any kind is not an option though.

anyhoo... i experienced a real chinese new year eve dinner at a real chinese home. thanks to clara. the way we dine are so different but i like both ways. my family eats a LOT more rice. we always have some kinda soup with our meal too. one thing we have in common: we cook way too much food. maybe on purpose. i tried almost everything at the table- even the pig feet. i've eaten it before the way koreans eat it- i think it's boiled, sliced and dipped in chili sauce. if you try hard not to think about the fact that it's pig's feet, they're not so bad. clara's dish was boiled but already marinated in some kind of soy sauce. it was good but i really couldn't finish it, which i felt very rude for. another difference: the WHOLE chicken was cooked, on a plate, at the table. and i mean- in one piece. the head, the claws, the whole works. i have NEVER ever seen a chicken like that ever. i was very scared. i am so accustomed to having everything cut off but the body and the legs. i'm not being rude, but it looked like a featherless chicken was sleeping on the plate. literally. 

i hope that wasn't offensive because her mother is a wonderful cook. she later chopped it up so it was easier to eat. 

*sigh*

work tomorrow.

no work day

ah. 

it feels good to be home all day. something happened at work and i got dropped off by my boss around 9:30 because she had to go somewhere. it's nothing serious, but i don't want to go in detail about it because what happens at work stays in the office. 

but work has been so drab lately. it's not just work, but life in general. nothing is really challenging anymore- everything is stagnant. i mean, i go out and have fun with friends but not having school really blows. when i first started work, it was exciting because i was learning something new and i had to learn a lot of things at once. i was all hyped. but after a few weeks, you know the drill- and that's all you do the whole day. working at the office and working for my mom, it's become all routine and i feel dead in a way. 

i think that's why i've been having really vivid dreams. and i wake up extremely tired because i get really stressed out in my dreams. this is weird because i don't dream much at all. in my dreams i encounter situations that i have no control over. something is always unfair for me. ugh. 

but it's probably because i've been physically tired, going to sleep late. i don't know. i'll give it a week and see if i go crazy =P

oh btw, this is my first post after Barack Hussein Obama became president!! woot woott! he's not a miracle worker, but we're moving towards change... and that's great. and please don't pronounce barack like barrack. it sounds weird-

don't let the bedbugs bite!

no, i'm not wishing you a cute 'good night.'
i'm warning you that you should watch out for bed bugs. i didn't even know they were real!

on the sunday edition of la times a couple days ago, there was a whole article on the return of these BED BUGS. i can't find the exact article on the la times website but it was close to this blog article. they're making a come back since their enemy, DDT, has been banned in the US. bed bugs are hard to kill, even with over the counter pesticides, so they've serious. reports of bedbugs have been sprouting up from all over the country and yes, CALIFORNIA. it's really easy to get them from public places. their eggs are near invisible and you might catch some on your purse or shoes. YIKES! they're awfully hard to get rid of, and you might have to throw out all your furniture.

so.... just watch out. not much is being done by the gov't yet because they're not known to carry diseases. but bed bugs sound prettty gross, don't they?

*bringing back DDT is not an option because it's hazardous to all organisms.