mistaken

so i have a lot of gay friends- gay guy friends- and i wondered if that made me come off as a lesbian somehow. i found out that it doesn't. people seem to understand the concept of a 'fag-hag' so it's been good.

but today kristen and i were mistaken as a lesbian couple. i've been saying that my short hairdo makes me look like a boy but i didn't know i would start giving off the samantha ronson vibe. kristen can certainly be an asian lindsay lohan minus the coke habit. we both got a haircut at the same time and her stylist thought that we were a couple. i didn't hear this bc i was with another stylist and i was talking about tattoos with him. 

i mean, we met up for a group project on a sunday morning so i was like.... in minimal makeup and plain clothing but since kristen dresses a lot more girlier and fancier, i guess we looked like a couple. how did i feel about it? it was interesting to hear that she thought that... but i got a strong urge to like seriously dress more girly. but then it's also the hair. ugh. i bought lipgloss today.

my hair doesn't look much different from before (i can barely tell the difference), but the proceeds went to the fire victims in brea so it was all worth it. it was at this salon called studio 5150 and they were raffling free 1-hr drum lessons with this ex-drummer from ACDC. cool, huh? i don't care much for them, but i know toni does so i got an autographed picture of him for her. his name is chris slade and he's the salon owner's dad or something. teehee.

i can't wait for my hair to grow out xP

the climax

there's only 3 weeks of school left (3rd week being finals) and everything is piling on in every class. group projects, essays, tests, BS! 

and then for some reason, i signed myself up for a features story. 1000 words. i might as well replace it with one good picture. haha... ha... ha...

i guess i wanted to do it because it's the last issue of the semester and it's probably going to be my last newspaper ever. cheryl, the student trustee at mt. sac wanted the mountaineer to do a story on halmuhnee and she only speaks korean, so i just jumped at it. 

halmuhnee is one of the several recycling ladies on campus. she goes around trash bins to pick up water bottles, soda bottles and any other recyclable things. there's another lady who has been at mt. sac for longer than she, for about ten year according to dr. maynard. but halmuhnee gets all the attention and knows a lot more people. anyway, i got to actually sit down and talk to her. 

there is so much to say about her, but i'll make it brief. she has 2 daughters here in US and a son in korea. she lives with her younger daughter's family in an apartment just down the street from mt. sac. they have been here since 2 years ago but her son-in-law cannot get a job, so she's helping out by bringing in some supplemental income. her daughter calls her 'guhji' which means homeless. the rest of her family though, is supportive. she said her granddaughters are very thankful and they do very well in school. one of her granddaughters actually attends mt. sac. But she told her granddaughter to not say 'hi' when she sees her because it will be embarrassing. my heart breaks.

omg so sad. she used to go to mountains and rock climb in korea! now she has to dig through trash. oh, the absurdities of life. 

i wish i can say more, but i gotta save the juice for the actual story. the issue is coming out.. during finals week?! i'm not sure. but wait for it... i'll make it a good one. 

<3 h2O

the google weather forecast forecasts rain on tuesday.

woot woot ! 

waaaaht?

A general view of the fireworks at the Atlantis resort in Dubai, Thursday, Nov. 20, 2008. While the rest of the world is tightening its belt, Dubai is throwing a US$20 million party Thursday complete with Hollywood celebrities and a fireworks show that organizers said would be visible from outer space. The party, which will be headlined by Australian pop star Kylie Minogue in her Middle East debut, is to celebrate a new US$1.5 billion marine-themed resort built off the Gulf coast on an artificial island in the shape of a palm tree. (AP Photo/Joel Ryan)

really? wow. where is all their money coming from? and why do they need fireworks that is visible from space? is anyone watching from outer space? who CARES about all this nonsense when the economy is so terrible? does anyone have the money to go to the resorts there? 

honestly.

o rly?

i don't know why but i've been very ditzy and forgetful lately. i hate it! i feel so dumb. i can't form my sentences right. i sound like a valley girl. not cool. 

and yes, it's 7:16am and i am at school because i have class at 7:30. boo. and i woke up at 5am to finish my damn movie review. ugh. life. 

listening to: jumping in the pool by friendly fires

ok done.

so i hope no one noticed, but i've been changing my layout a LOT over the last couple of days. like ridiculously, obsessively. and you're probably saying.... and you've only got this? it's not that i've been preparing extravagant graphics or style sheets but i've just been experimenting with different colors, etc. i wasted a lot of time. in retrospect... in psychoanalyzing myself, i think i was trying to distract myself from the REAL things i have to do. like... writing journal entries for my interpersonal communications class.

i have to handwrite them in this tiny 5x6 journal and i need 16 entries by tomorrow. i have 6 and a half so far. yea i'm royally fucked. i have things planned out and i know what i want to write. the things is, i just don't feel like doing it.

uh oh. haha.




well i said i would talk more about jacc in my earlier post, so i'll update briefly. overall, i was disappointed. i liked the whole event and all, but i feel like mt.sac could've done a lot better. i mean, we ARE the best. so why aren't we performing? we didn't even get general excellence for the mountaineer and that really upset me. we have to get things done on time and make it look good... we need higher goals. but congrats to carmichael for winning second place in features writing! that is amazing.

the best part about jacc was hanging out with the mountaineer crew afterwards at shawn's house. i drank! omg. haha. and i played beer pong... and won thanks to aldo, my teammate. it was definitely a bonding moment for all of us. and a moment of realization that albert serna should never drink bc he goes ape shit when he's drunk. i also realized that i like vodka and redbull even though i don't like redbull. and rum isn't all that bad. teehee.

now i really have to go get started on my stupid journals. wish me luck!

suicide

i am here at Cal State Fullerton for the second day of the JACC (Journalism Association of Community Colleges) SoCal Competition. it's an event where journalism students from community colleges in socal come together to compete in different areas such as photography, newswriting, designing layout, etc. i'll write more about that in the next post, but first i want to talk about an article i read in the Daily Titan yesterday. 

it was on the front page and the headline read something like "suicide among asian american women on the rise." it immediately caught my attention. one of the professors at fullerton did a research on women and suicide and she found out that the rate of suicide in asian women increases as women get older. the professor said that it's because asian women have really high expectations that they must meet. overall, they are pressured to be good at everything. wow! that's how i've been feeling these days! ... all my life! haha. and i can't say that i haven't thought about suicide, but i think that's normal. it wasn't anytime recently but i definitely feel a lot of pressure to be good at every aspect of my life- as a student, daughter, sister, person, etc. but i thought everyone else felt that way... so what makes us crack??

it's all in the way we deal with our stress and pressure. the professor did mention that women exercise, meditate, get involved, etc to cope with their stress but i wonder what it is for asian women that makes us so vulnerable to ourselves... i mean, bc other women obviously have similar problems. it must be the way we deal with it. we need to rise up, asian women of the world!! reach out for help! reach out to the community! get involved and lets live....

working

one of my coworkers had to get a surgery on her ear... more like a procedure for an infection from a piercing so i have to work 4 days straight. friday-mon. it's not too bad but i'm not used to eeeet.

holy apps, stats hw and photo assignments! i want a break. i canNOT wait for thanksgiving!
my grandma told me my aunt is planning to prepare crab for thanksgiving. AND ham. what the... we always have ham from honeybaked but now we're gonna add on crab? i love crab but i don't think turkey and crab go very well together. but then my family DOES eat a lot. holidays are truly a feast for our family and we overeat too. but still, i'm gonna tell my aunt that we only need one kind of animal for thanksgiving. one or the other.

on a different note, i need to stop skipping class. not going to stats is SO much easier than going and fighting sleep for two hours. ugh. i was thinking about skipping monday but then i would be missing class for the third time in a row... and the ever studious person that i am, won't let myself do that. skipping class is something that you shouldn't start in the first place. bc once you do it, you know how much better it feels and you start doing it over and over again. ugh.

well have a great veteran's day weekend, everyone
and thanks to our troops overseas !!

we barROCKED the vote!

i was so nervous... and then it happened.
obama indeed is our next president and i was thankful that our nation made the right choice. i am so excited to see him as a president. he is going to face some MAJOR challenges but he'll handle it.


as for the propositions, we'll have to wait for the complete count so i'll check it in the morning.

i've had a long day with classes starting at 7:30am and covering the forensics event, election night spectacular which went from 6:30 to around 9. there were debates on prop2 and prop7&10 which didn't amuse me very much. the speakers were not prepared since they did not know any information beyond the 3-5 line description in the general election booklet. a lot of their arguments sounded like last minute bs. maybe it's because i've seen some really great forensics stuff in the previous semesters, i had high expectations. i did enjoy a reader's theatre performance. it was about people moving to canada to escape the rule of bush haha. it was very entertaining and it saved the event. there was a great turnout- the seats were all full and people were standing against the walls. it was held in the stage area of 9c, the student life center, so it's a big space. about half left after the performances were over because they were there to get extra credit for their speech classes.

after that, i went to the measure rr celebration in their office by stater bros. with carmichael and freddy. mostly adults were there, such as the school's board of trustees and some other school faculties. some people who worked for measure rr were there as well. there were plenty of food, so i replenished myself there. i ran into a lot of people i knew and met the director of media and community at mt. sac. her name is jill and she was so kind- she said that she still knew a lot of photogs from her days as a journalist and if i ever needed her help, she'll be glad to assist. yay!

today was a GRRREAT day...except for my history test that i got back today

but OBAMA won and that's all i really could have asked from today.

feeling the pressure

i feel so tense right now.
i'm struggling to stay awake because for the past 4 months or so, time went an hour faster and now i'm supposed to adapt to the real time. which makes it only 9:45 right now.

needless to say, i haven't adapted at all. i woke up in darkness this morning and when i looked at my phone, it was 5:45. i said 'holy shit!' and tried to put myself to sleep again.

it might have been because i had a huge interview today for my interpersonal communications class. i was really nervous all day yesterday and when i feel that tense, i tend to wake up earlier than usual. the interview went smoothly i think, and i am thankful for that.

i came home and i thought i could relax. no such luxury.
i have an essay draft due tomorrow for a paper due thursday- i know you're saying 'then just do it wed night!' but it's always helpful to have my friends read it and give me feedback and see what other people are writing about. then i started panicking about UC apps. they did start on the first and it's already the third. i have a month but i feel so out of time. recent changes of heart: my major and my first-choice of school are what's really screwing me. ugh. applications are such a complicated process, especially for UCs. and i don't even know if i want to go to one anymore.

to relieve some tension, i went on youtube. on the front page, i saw a featured beyonce music video of 'single ladies (put a ring on it)'



and immediately i remember another video that i had seen a while ago. i actually had it on my myspace a couple years ago when the song 'walk it out' was new. the video was a parody of 'walk it out' and i had to look it up.




after watching this one, i was sure that the choreographer for the beyonce video was 100% "influenced" by this second video. i don't know, it was such a weird discovery. i had to write about it.

i'm so tired, i'm gonna go. but if you read this before 11/04, PLEASE VOTE
and remember to vote NO on prop 8. it's REALLY about discrimination!
gay people are BORN gay just like you were born with your skin color.
being gay is not a choice. it is a NATURAL thing.
they LOVE their partners just as you love your man/woman.
legalize justice.