feeling the pressure

i feel so tense right now.
i'm struggling to stay awake because for the past 4 months or so, time went an hour faster and now i'm supposed to adapt to the real time. which makes it only 9:45 right now.

needless to say, i haven't adapted at all. i woke up in darkness this morning and when i looked at my phone, it was 5:45. i said 'holy shit!' and tried to put myself to sleep again.

it might have been because i had a huge interview today for my interpersonal communications class. i was really nervous all day yesterday and when i feel that tense, i tend to wake up earlier than usual. the interview went smoothly i think, and i am thankful for that.

i came home and i thought i could relax. no such luxury.
i have an essay draft due tomorrow for a paper due thursday- i know you're saying 'then just do it wed night!' but it's always helpful to have my friends read it and give me feedback and see what other people are writing about. then i started panicking about UC apps. they did start on the first and it's already the third. i have a month but i feel so out of time. recent changes of heart: my major and my first-choice of school are what's really screwing me. ugh. applications are such a complicated process, especially for UCs. and i don't even know if i want to go to one anymore.

to relieve some tension, i went on youtube. on the front page, i saw a featured beyonce music video of 'single ladies (put a ring on it)'



and immediately i remember another video that i had seen a while ago. i actually had it on my myspace a couple years ago when the song 'walk it out' was new. the video was a parody of 'walk it out' and i had to look it up.




after watching this one, i was sure that the choreographer for the beyonce video was 100% "influenced" by this second video. i don't know, it was such a weird discovery. i had to write about it.

i'm so tired, i'm gonna go. but if you read this before 11/04, PLEASE VOTE
and remember to vote NO on prop 8. it's REALLY about discrimination!
gay people are BORN gay just like you were born with your skin color.
being gay is not a choice. it is a NATURAL thing.
they LOVE their partners just as you love your man/woman.
legalize justice.